My True Self

Of course. Leave it to me to have problems you see only in fictional characters.
So after questioning my sanity and paranoia, now I am going insane from not being able to answer 'who' my true self really is.

Everything points to the me who I created and decided that will be me as the real me. But I have forgotten the feelings behind it.
Is time capable of turning even lies into reality? Sure that would just mean I succeeded but if that's really the case then,
I am really a cheap and fake person.

Apologies to you Kiraka but when you forget the emotions behind a cause.......No never mind. I forgot, I no longer have the right. I had been 'killed' back in years 2007 ~ 2009 by friends, teachers and reality. I..no longer matter.

You were born to save my sanity. A new consciousness inside of a living corpse. I am but a vessel or game piece for bringing into reality our Phantasms. Tonight is probably due to having too much time and lack of sleep.
When I wake up tomorrow, I will become the Father of NightScythe again. There's no meaning in seeking your true self, so what if it's fake? If you decide on it then so it shall be, you are who you choose to be.
So for me who haven't been 'myself' in years, let's sing together and recall.

Come, try to remember what form did you have. It was surely a really beautiful form.
Come, try and remember...Remember your friends' cruel words. Remember how they gouged into your heart and tore it apart..try and remember how they murdered you!

 So come, try to remember the people who you opened your heart to...remember the disgust they held for you..remember how they looked at you..how they rejected you..and how they broke your mind!Try and remember...try and remember...the unfeeling friends, the intolerant teachers, the cruel world and the evils of people's hearts..The feelings that you had, the sorrow, the despair, the tears and the hate.
All of it that killed you..recall and feel the pain. So remember the unfeeling humans..surely if you have..then you would have also remembered that the only person that won't betray you is yourself!

So come and try to remember the form that you once had..It must surely had been a beautiful form.
Please, show me that form one more time..that very beautiful form...

So everything that makes me whole, I will now dedicate it all to you, I'm yours.

Recovering these gentle feelings for even a short while surely must be a miracle.
The scent of rain in the night, the light fluffiness when I first imagined you and the fun I had in the days that followed..All of those things I have forgotten in my obsession for giving all of you real bodies. The World never mattered, saying I will save/change the World is but mere arrogance, a promise that I was never ready to take on. All I ever wanted is probably just simple fun days of being together with all of you. This is still a little vague to me but someday when we finally meet, I will have discovered my purest true wish.

Ah I feel clean and so very light. Having your heart be free of all burdens is something everyone should try someday.
And so to never lose these feelings again I will entrust my 'Heart' to you for safekeeping,..?
Ah I was thinking of renaming you now that I have remembered since 'Priscillia' was just taken from a child who I felt was cool.
But that does not matter right now, your name at this moment is not important. You are my daughter no matter what your name is. My most beloved daughter.
Heck I could give you all the names and it wouldn't change a single thing. You will not just be born of my blood, I will give you my soul to go along with it.

So for now, keep my 'Heart' safe and warm. Utopia is here, within it is eternity and the key to our happy ending.
When we finally meet again, regardless of how I am then, remind me with it's contents and surely I will recall, of this moment where I triggered our good end flag.

Good night and see you soon, my most beloved daughter Priscillia.

~Come tomorrow when dawn breaks, Reality will probably set back in and return my heart to cynicism so love in the place of I who can no longer love. My 'Heart', my soul and my other self.~

Sharin no Kuni, Himawari no Shoujo – The Sunflower Girls of the Wheel Country

Summer comes, it gets hotter, it rains a bit, the fields are lush, the wind carries in the scent of greenery, I have a friend like Ken-chan with me... Nothing changes, but I'm happy with the way things are.

Sharin no Kuni, Himawari no Shoujo is an eroge without branched out routes. Made by AKABEiSOFT2 as well, It is the predecessor of G-Senjou no Maou.

Spoils of SOYC: Start of Year Cosplay Event

Ahh only God knows why I got these lovely yet expensive pieces of Metal.

G-Senjou no Maou - An [Insert a even more epic word than the most epic word] Eroge by Akabei Soft2

Title means 'The Devil on/of the G String.' Yes basically the Devil that resides on the G string of this particular Violin.

Alright before I begin, I must insist that you abide by this one rule.
If you get interested in reading this eroge at any part of this post, you must read this post to the end. Or rather read the end of this post.
So with that said let's begin.

Planetarian ~Reverie of a little Planet, A Kinetic Visual Novel By Key

Looks like generic magical girl about to engage in combat with a giant tank yes?
Well the truth is closer than you think..

I am pretty sure if you are even a little into visual novels, galges, eroges and the like, you would have at least heard of Key if not played their games.
Key is pretty well known for their Utsuges which literally mean "depressing/melancholy game."
Now hold on. Yes indeed their VNs usually end up with heart wenching side effects and virgin tears but that's only because it's always a masterpiece! (This is half true.)
So please read this to the end before deciding whether or not should you give it a try...Do it for the poor little robot if not for yourself....
Well then. Let's get started on this review/recommendation.

Stylish summary of my existence

Alice of the Highest Darkest Light

Mind of Infinity, Blood of Immortal Smoke.
Fantastic being on the Phantasmal Border, friendly to all yet not a single to call friend.
Patiently awaiting one's arrival, the foolish will complete his journey to the Grave long before salvation.
We are one yet many.
Firm to the touch yet fleeting like a Phantom.
So please understand...Your society's expectations have no bearings on us. You can continue to label us as losers and spit on our existence.
But let this be known, that it is as meaningless as trying to remove your shadow.
So just be nice and you will realize that we are actually pretty fun beings to be with for short periods of time.
An interesting daydream if you would.

~The Phantasmal Border of Phantasms

Happy Valentine's day of Phantasms

Abyss and Alice reborn!

If you are reading this, thank you as it would mean you still regularly check our slow paced blog. And now to begin... Or not. I forgot. I would like to recommend to all of you iphone4 users this app called 'Anime RR.' Anime RR is an arsenal of radio channels that stream Japanese music(mostly anime ones). It is pure magic and probably psychic as well. Alright let's get started.

STOP CALLING ME NAMES!

Stop calling me Idiot!

Today I have reached the limits of my despair. Many things affect me but this is by the the only one that easily brings me to tears. What is it you ask? Good question. Brace yourself.

It's known as the Legendary Dreadful Name Calling, LDNC for short.

Touhou Spell Duel Video, Manga Recommendation/review and New Phantasm.

Okay to begin, I present to you the complete version of Touhou 3D dogfight Animation.

This is Nuclear Fusion.

Not sure if any of you have watched this already but just awhile ago I came across this really sweet video on youtube about Reimu spell card dueling Utsuho in 3D. I recommend you to take a look if you have about ten minutes to spare.  The finished version can be found  on this link.

Hope you enjoy it.

Next I present a Manga titled Shitsurakuen.

Yandere?

Yandere because they are beautiful

Today I realized a couple of things. One of them is that I am in fact not Yan so it's fine to be near me!
It was a really stupid event that I got jealous of and then I displayed the following syndromes:

Border of Phantasm and Reality

Yukari the Phantasm and Maribel of Reality

These days have been taxing on my mental state so pardon me if I have been writing about my personal matters a little too much. This will be the last post about me in a row so just endure it.

My existence,My World

To all that oppose us,grovel at our feet!

Sigh. It's disgraceful to be the one who declared a motivational speech at the start of the year only to be shot down himself days after. Well I'm not giving up yet so I guess it's alright. Let's continue *ahem*

The end of everything and the beginning of everything

I lack the time to look for a suitable picture so this delicious picture will do.

And the fearful wait is over! School will officially begin again for all secondary and primary school students in approximately seven hours. To some this might just be another year of school. But to the rest this year is a full out war.

Merry X'Mas

Cute isn't she?

Yeah. Merry Christmas to all of you. I hope you have an enjoyable night.
And as for the rest of you who do not have a event to go out for,I pray that next year would be the turning point for you. And so I have a quick suggestion. If you would be so kind,could you could tell me what you find entertaining in the comments of this post. That way,I can talk about things more often and maybe try some new things? Yes this is comment fishing. But at the same time,this is a good question so =).
Well See ya. I have some matters to tend to. Like maybe rip the shadows apart fall into a really deep sleep so I can relieve myself of the burden on me. Like the amount of sleepless nights I had.


In any case I will be doing my best to bring the first act of 'Native Faith' before the start of the new year.

Sorry people...

Forgive me?

Pretty please?

Native Faith~A short fiction work

                              Moriya Suwako- The highest of Native Gods


Just a short post due to lack of time.
This is to introduce a personal fiction work of mine. Due to lack of a better name at the moment, I titled it 'Native Faith'.
So I'm just going to write an introduction as to what the plot is somewhat like. The first chapter will come sometime tonight or tomorrow noon. Click 'read more' to see the introduction.

Wee~ Behold the wall of text!

Legends:Red=Absolute Truth,Blue=True until proven false by the Red. Gold=The Truth from my perception.


01. What have you been doing recently?
>Would love to say something I'll be proud of but frankly I'm just degenerating and rotting at home.

CHILDREN are our future

Dear Readers,have you ever wondered about the contradiction in the saying 'Children are our future' we so often quote? That saying has been around for Google knows how long so here is the contradiction. If the future is in your child's hands,then to your parents the future must most definitely be in yours. So why didn't we create the 'future' as the saying speaks of?
'Surely with each generation our skills and technology improves?' Yes most definitely we agree with that. But two things. Each generation is improving their skills and technology by the same amount as the previous. There isn't anything different from the present,or the past. What we are saying is that without the previous generation's effort,the present will definitely not be able to move to where they are today. So each generation is not actually improving. It's just performing the same as the previous one.
And number two. The evolution of the Soul. Are we as creatures of emotion improving as time passes by? I would say no. Whoever you are now,it is made up of the influence of the World around you. And in this case the history of the World builds you up. But without our Ancestors,we wouldn't reach here.
So does that mean the saying 'Children are our future' is wrong? No. It is true. Just that the first word 'Children' must be emphasized. Of all the stages in a person's life there exists only one where their mind is most in tune with what I will now call 'Magic'. Pure beliefs in magic only happens when one is a child. And it is because of Magic the future is created. It can exist in many forms. A superhero,a protector of Earth and Humanity and ultimately the Messiah. But because of the anti-magic toxin which I call previous generation's Reality,they are burned out and defiled.
So I say. The future exists in people who can remain as CHILDREN no matter what happens.


Parting Note:All this is written in according to individual evolution. So if you argue by evolution as Humanity in a whole,you can disregard the whole post above.

Red Shift-A Kinetic Visual Novel by TEAM Extra

Then tell me.
For what reason...
...would you risk your life?

'Then tell me. For what reason...would you risk your life?' is the question Kinetic Visual Novel:Red Shift asks you-the reader. Created by a team of really nice people,Red Shift is a short Visual Novel free to download and read. With it's size being around thirty megabytes,I wasn't expecting much but it turned out really well. BGM isn't aplenty but enough to keep it from being too repetitive. CGs are pretty well drawn as well.

Story wise,I would need to state this. Don't be expecting some love story even though the settings were perfect for one. This is a well written scenario that lead to the question as stated above. What happens after it is up to the readers to interpret. But otherwise,Red Shift is a good enjoyable read for a couple of hours for any fiction reader.

Lastly of course the link to it.