STOP CALLING ME NAMES!

Stop calling me Idiot!

Today I have reached the limits of my despair. Many things affect me but this is by the the only one that easily brings me to tears. What is it you ask? Good question. Brace yourself.

It's known as the Legendary Dreadful Name Calling, LDNC for short.

Laugh at it, joke about it, underestimate it's effects. Believe it will never affect you.
The former thoughts are exactly the same ones your beloved Phantasmal blogger I had. But hey look! Without realizing it, I have been caught in this web of LDNC. It's really unpleasant and despairing I tell you all. I am now so confused that I don't know whether to cry,scream or drown in sleep.

To the majority of you out there, name calling might be at most a really annoying aspect but definitely nothing to lose your sleep over yes? Unfortunately for me dear name calling friends of mine. A Name means so much more than just a title. It's as if you took out my core and whatever I pride myself on and sprayed all your Sin Juice all over it,drowning it in the most concentrated of shame before forcing me to wear it.

I mean really? First you call me a Pedo. At least that doesn't overwrite me as a name. But what. The things you call lolicons aren't even loli-genred. For God's sake they are teen height tall and developed but what? I am a pedo. Then it came to this. What is this I don't even...You name me Nancy. You name me that. A questionable existence. A gay lord. The ultimate scum of ugliness and defiling. I'm not even just being denied now. I don't even have a decent presence anymore. Lesser than a phantasm but more than a pig. Just can't you hear me out for once? It really wouldn't matter much and no one else but people that are close to me would ever call me something else but there is the problem. My only friends LDNCing me with really terrible sense. How lovely is that?

Frankly I feel as if my life just got lost forever and that I should just go to sleep forever right now. I can and will beg if it's what it takes to relieve myself of this Endless Nightmare. The despair it brings is just as bad as watching everyone else die first and you becoming alone if you know what I mean. I can say for certain. The darkness is definitely equal if no superior to that of the 'Night Syndrome' you have.

So please? I won't ask for much. You don't even have to give me back my chosen name. Just give me the name I have been named with from my birth and I'll be relieved.

~The Phantasmal Border of Phantasms