Ok so finally got rid of black-out inducing dizzy spells & fever after five days.
Now left with flu and sore throat + some dizziness to deal with.
Things with Reyin have finally been normal again.(ok maybe its way long ago and actually nothing really happened to be abnormal...Oh yeah thanks Alice again.)
So nothing really happened these days...Tried watching CANAAN though...
Its once again Type-Moon gayness with the character.(Mystic Eyes FTW!!!)
Now at the 6th book of Harry Potter.Really I can't believe I haven't read it until now...
Downloaded Kara no Kyoukai 5 and 6 but still haven't convinced myself that watching them isn't a unholy sin yet.

If anyone's gonna tag,Church or Sin?Just choose one.

See you in the faraway Eden Alice...

~Kiraka NightScythe

Okay after complaining so long about having no friends,
I've realized again I had three friends who were true to me...
But I dropped them when I got into secondary school...
So this post is for them(and me)to show that I haven't forgotten you guys.
Thank you all for being with me for those years in primary school filling my days with fun and joy...
I don't remember your surnames but at least I still remember your names(forgive me please?)

Keng Hoe,the one with the punk personality on the outside but caring and kind in the inside...
Thank you for inviting us together for your birthday dinners during those years...Help me thank your mother for those fine cuisine she treated us to.

Ashley,the one who was friendly enough to become my friend during the most unexpected times.(If I remember its in some weird Chinese compo class right?Playing Liquid paper bombs and talking about Zombies.)Thank you for filling my days at school with fun and joy while we do stupid things together,played cards and talked about many things.Hope your skin problem have been cured=)All the best.

And last but not least Yong Yu,the one who lived and still lived six floors below my house who helped me with my homework and physical problems when I needed help.Thank you for helping me so many countless times on my homework and projects.Forward my thanks to your family who helped me with making and painting my giant ant figurine during secondary one for my art project.And thanks to your sister for teaching me maths when I couldn't cope.Your family was really interesting.I really enjoyed my time when I was with you guys.

So let me once thank all of you again for being there for me when I need it.There of course are many more things I remember but those memories should just stay where they belong shouldn't they?Our memories...

And if you are wondering about my situation in life and mentality,I'll just dedicate this song to myself.It kinda describes my situation...Ok here enjoy...

Aoi Hana by Color Bottle.



English Lyrics(To understand my plight of course):Hey, why were we born?
Hey, why did we meet?
I can't say why and I'm scared, so please
hold my hand tightly in return.

We tried escaping from a harsh reality,
but did we expect everything from an existence that's like an illusion?

These emotions of mine pushing everything around, this discord that confuses me;
as I embrace all of these, I want to advance, advance!

On a cracked hill, under a rusty sky, we are like blue flowers, trying to live.
As we nestle together, we see transient dreams, but we don't want to wither away yet!

Hey, why were we born?
Hey, why did we meet?
I can't say why and I'm scared, so please
hold my hand tightly in return.

Your hair fluttering and smelled gently,
warmly, lovely, flowing from your shoulder that's in the sun?

These hands of mine piling everything around, this smile on the absent me;
protect you, I want to always, always!

The limited future, in a flickering world, we are like blue flowers, trying to live.
As we cry together, with these petals, but we want to receive and stop each others tears!

Hey, why were we born?
Hey, why did we meet?
I can't say why and I'm scared, so please
hold my hand tightly in return.

Hey, why were we born?
Hey, why did we meet?
I can't say why and I'm scared, so please
hold my hand tightly in return.

How stupid of me...

Seriously...I can't believe I actually went into madness cause of something like that for even a moment...
Its just...Stupid...Hasn't it always been like this?Obviously it is and it still will be...
So yeah.I shouldn't be bother nor disturbed by this kind of sudden...hope/crash Incident...
Of course...Since from the start I should have known...Hope does not belong to me...Having hope will only lead to despair when it happens...

By: Kiraka NightScythe

Awakening of the Gigalomaniac

Yesterday was weird.
Accompanied Reyin aka Black Serpent aka Satan back to his pandemonium...
Then just before I left for home,he received some instructions to tell him not go
to his grandma house.So he forcefully tracked me back to my house.Attempted juking him but
to no avail so i allowed the snake in.Then by some misunderstanding,I chased him out O.o...Then was like oh well...Sat back to my chair,this weird thingy in my chest I now named 'the consciousness' started burning like its trying to skewer me with a stake.So walking around like an idiot,I finally gave in to my new 'guilty consciousness' and called Reyin back.Decided to go have dinner so I went to bath.Dammed consciousness skewered me till I gone all sympathetic --...So I did what I doubt anyone actually does.I went out,prepared a small disorganized speech and apologized to Reyin for chasing him out,calling him names,judging his sins and trying to avoid him.I even thanked him for coming back when he was on the way to Alice's.Then I also apologized to Alice for weird stuff that I don't even understand...
I can't help but feel that way since yesterday...It keep getting more and more intense(the sympathy that is)the more I spend outside.It kinda slowed down after I made a prayer to God,Jesus and Lilith.And totally stop gaining ground after losing horribly in a DotA match Martin organized.So now I'm not becoming a mercifully being but still my true name is Sympathy.
Ok to cut everything short,my true nature changed to Sympathy.

Note:Either its because of my new habit of worshiping Lilith,or...Its my new habit and sport to restrain,refrain and abstain from the sin of Lust.

By: Kiraka NightScythe.