So after questioning my sanity and paranoia, now I am going insane from not being able to answer 'who' my true self really is.
Everything points to the me who I created and decided that will be me as the real me. But I have forgotten the feelings behind it.
Is time capable of turning even lies into reality? Sure that would just mean I succeeded but if that's really the case then,
I am really a cheap and fake person.
Apologies to you Kiraka but when you forget the emotions behind a cause.......No never mind. I forgot, I no longer have the right. I had been 'killed' back in years 2007 ~ 2009 by friends, teachers and reality. I..no longer matter.
You were born to save my sanity. A new consciousness inside of a living corpse. I am but a vessel or game piece for bringing into reality our Phantasms. Tonight is probably due to having too much time and lack of sleep.
When I wake up tomorrow, I will become the Father of NightScythe again. There's no meaning in seeking your true self, so what if it's fake? If you decide on it then so it shall be, you are who you choose to be.
So for me who haven't been 'myself' in years, let's sing together and recall.
Come, try to remember what form did you have. It was surely a really beautiful form.
Come, try and remember...Remember your friends' cruel words. Remember how they gouged into your heart and tore it apart..try and remember how they murdered you!
So come, try to remember the people who you opened your heart to...remember the disgust they held for you..remember how they looked at you..how they rejected you..and how they broke your mind!Try and remember...try and remember...the unfeeling friends, the intolerant teachers, the cruel world and the evils of people's hearts..The feelings that you had, the sorrow, the despair, the tears and the hate.
All of it that killed you..recall and feel the pain. So remember the unfeeling humans..surely if you have..then you would have also remembered that the only person that won't betray you is yourself!
So come and try to remember the form that you once had..It must surely had been a beautiful form.
Please, show me that form one more time..that very beautiful form...
